Episode of the heart

As one waits with the mist of time swirling in and swirling out, one asks, "Why did he end it?". One longs for kindergarten, symbolic of happier times when one had not fallen into love. Why was one happy then? One accepted everything as is. Then why couldn't one accept things the way they were now? One looks for a better reason. A stronger reason. How long can one be selfish and think of how safe one felt when with him? Not for long. Not now on. Sometimes the only source of light is a glowworm.(Her thoughts were scattered and on him.)Maybe he didn't feel safe. Cared for. Comforted. Loved. cherished. Maybe he didn't find a companion in her that he thought he'd found. He expected too much, a voice said. Others said it. He, too, wisely had sometimes. She had felt it too sometimes. But it was coz he gave so much. A natural thought of wisdom spoke within her. Great expectations had led to great misery. And now it just left a throb in the heart, an ache, which couldn't be touched or healed. At times it worsened, at times it seemed distant, but it was always there. Sometimes there was a terror that gripped the heart. She'd think the unthinkable. If he was with someone else, if not by self, maybe in the mind. But then, i reminded her, his life had never been upto her. He lived it on his own terms always. And now he is freer. All that remained, was a situation she wasn't accepting. She had to come to terms with it. That was all that was left. She exhaled.

Yes she would wait. But not wait for him this time. She would wait, only, for him to let her know, that he was happy atlast.

Time had passed in reasoning. But time, she realized, had been lost a long time back. She was slow in catching up - with butterflies, time and people.

She stopped thinking. She focussed on the colors that people were wearing. She seemed at peace. The bus came up. It took her and went.Her soul remained there.

"The binds break...the bonds remain."