Demise

RagDoll - Maroon 5

How ya feelin?
When the day has had its way with both of us
And oh! I've gone out of my way but im not free
From this pain im reelin
I was a fool to think someday you would come around
But no no no, I'm not thinkin that way
Cause now i see

You are not what you seem
You are a mystery to me
Sometimes I just want to scream
I think you should just go away cause
There's no necessity for you to stay
next time you come around my way
Forget it baby you're not comin in

hows your day been, yeah
cause mine has taken straight and ugly turns
but no no no, i feel better today
cause im off my knees

You are not what you seem
you are a mystery to me
sometimes I just want to scream
I think you should just go away cause
theres no necessity for you to stay
next time you come around my way
forget it baby you're not comin in

A hot minute for a life of sorrow
no you cant come back tomorrow
shut my windows lock my doors
cause my heart wont be your rag doll anymore
yeah

I think you should just go away cause
theres no necessity for you to stay
next time you come around my way
forget it baby you're not comin in
a hot minute for a life of sorrow
no you cant come back tomorrow
shut my windows lock my doors
cause my heart wont be your rag doll anymore!

oh, yeah!
yeah!

cause my heart wont be your rag doll anymore!

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Dreaming with a broken heart... - John Mayer

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering: was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No, she's not...
'Cause she's gone gone gone gone gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering, could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
But she can't...
'Cause she's gone gone gone gone gone

Now do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses, with roses in my hand?
And would you get them if I did?
No you won't...
'Cause you're gone gone gone gone gone

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

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Thinkin' about you... - Norah Jones

Yesterday I saw the sun shinin'
And the leaves were fallin' down softly
My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch
And I was thinkin' about you

Here I am lookin' for signs of leaving
You hold my hand, but do you really need me?
I guess it's time for me to let you go
But I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you

When you sail across the ocean waters
And you reach the other side safely
Could you smile a little smile for me?
Cause I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you
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This happens to be the last post on this blog...

The lover in me for the love who inspired this blog, has died at long last.

...and for better, hopefully, i'll let her...

Rest In Peace.

To the dear dr i once loved...

http://mydream2catch.blogspot.com/2007/01/guardian-angel.html

To that sweet man who could never see me cry,
...The one who craved for my smile,
To that wonderful man who was the only occurrence of Serendipity in my life,
...The man who was better than the man of my dreams,
To the man who promised he'd be with me till death
...The man who destroyed all of me eventually
To the man who loved me with my bad shoes,
...The man who wanted to steal me away to solapur
To the man who could never say "i love you"
...The man who gave me his heart while he was hurting so much

To the man who should've taught me to drive a car,
...The man who might've tolerated my prudishness,
To the man who should've shared his music with me,
...The man who might've understood my thriftyness
To the man who should've taught me to hold a fork,
...The man who might've endeared my sluggishness,
To the man who should've taught me to give CPR,
....The man who might've found me worth giving up smoking for,
To that man who spoke sweeter than honey...
....a sound that still echoes in my heart...
The very same man who couldn't but one promise keep...
.....to leave me hanging on to him in the dark.

~luv u dr.

Lighter Days

...and there are days like these...
Like the smell of cinnamon,melting in coffee...
Like bathing your senses,with vanilla fields
Like these lighter dayswith no chromatic keys

...and there's something so stupid happening...
You just can't stop recalling
and laughing like you never did
You're counting the trees passing
by on your return journey
You're living lighter days
with no trace of memories!

...and you get raspberry color in your hair...
You just dance on some John
Mayer music naked
You just stick out your tongue
to taste the rain all over again
You just blow pink bubbles
sauntering down the walkway...

...one of these lighter days
...the sun will shine on your bed
...you relish the freshly baked bread
...you'll wake up with a tune in your head.

Let that be enough - Switchfoot


Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

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Let me know that you hear me p'ysh
Let me know your touch p'ysh
Let me know that you love me p'ysh
Let that be enough.

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows she's needy...

Beyond.
written for my Rock group(unchristened as yet!)





(chorus)
Beyond your reach
Beyond your hate
Beneath your love
Beyond your faith,i shall lay.

I brood in my tomb of silence about
the bygone days
If that's the only way to keep in touch
when you deign
To show me that somewhere for me you
still care
And you've not yet undone 'us'
thru your strength.

(chorus)
Beyond your reach
Beyond your hate
Beneath your love
Beyond your scathe,i shall remain.

Don't fake aloofness cos you'll just
fail my respect
N when u do that, i so wanna
slap you in your face
You're burning this love up like
one of your cigarettes
Wake up before you become unloved like
the whore next to you in the train.

(Bridge)
Wake up before you feel like
a wasted doll at your desk.

(chorus)
Beyond your greed
Beyond your pride
Beneath your love
Beyond your vanity,i'll dig my grave.

On my epitaph...

"She was an enigma to all who knew her...
But she always longed to be 'Esther'...and read
'The Zahir' to the man she confided her Soul to."

10 (crazy) things i'd like to do in the next 5 yrs...

• Take a pilgrimage down the road of San Tiago.(thanks to Paulo Coelho!!)
• Travel allll of Europe...esp. France!!(j'adore bien cet pays!!)
• Cut my own album with all my original songs.
• Go sky diving and horse riding and scooba diving!!! :)
• Learn the violin in a school of Music in Vienna, Austria.
• Adopt a child - preferably an Indian girl.(serious about this one,but will have to build my own home first!!!)
• Travel a desert and stay there for atleast a week.(listen to the sounds of the sifting dunes)
• Make love on a beach by moonlight! :)
• Act in a foreign language film!(have always desired this...!)
• Undergo past-life regression therapy and obtain answers to the why's and how's.